It’s Magic!

Wahai tangan yang diberi, tangan untuk menarikan kayu hikmat,
Wahai mata yang mampu melihat, mencari dan menerokai,
Wahai minda yang mampu mencipta, mencari dan melahirkan keindahan,
Wahai yang Maha Esa, berikanlah kami ilham dan kesabaran agar kami dapat berkarya.

Generating creativity and excellence in the past two weeks has been such a tremendous experience. To be able to work with highly talented team, most of all great leadership with full of positive mind-set and always, to be able to think outside the box.

Taken in a different perspective, it was a great ‘margin’ growth for me (in terms of my skillets), where I was able to create something far than I can expect in such a short period. Nevertheless, the people I work in this period of time has been such great company which I was once worked with them in 2001. Like Rashidin* said, ‘Baaaiiikkk punya!’ (means ‘verrryy good!’).

* Rashidin, is an ‘Otai’ (Master conceptualist) in XM as well as the whole creative team.

Now that I’m hanging out with Yunus, I’m gonna be injected with Adidas shoes and latest gears, which I find it verrry shagging baby, yeah! I’m finally buying a lomo camera from Faizal Reza. Wishing him the best of luck! (hope to be safe in his back-packing tour in Europe).

The Caring Dan,
Being such a great motivator, he’s a great company and always provides me with those FYI facts in instant (like hotspot lah…), yep, that’s my brother, Daniel. He has been ‘injecting’ me with positive way to stay healthy, In fact, he loves to give advices on food and he cooks great! Since I hang out with him, I managed to gain 2kg, with ‘upgraded’ parts of my body muscle grown as positive result of my workout, hoorey! Now, that Kanye West workout plan really works :P
He’s very much concern about me and very kind enough to send me off to work and call me up everyday just to check on my condition (due to my cold breakup).

I gotta tell ya’all how wonderful Ulu Yam is! Beautiful panorama view of the lake and the waterfall is just nyze! It’s refreshing and freakin’ chillin’. Me and Daniel went there last week and have our skin soak in the fresh water.

When it’s over
The hardest decision in my life has finally been made. There are no regrets, just like Robbie Williams sang in his song. I can’t afford to catch-up on this cold long distance relationship, it’s killing me, especially here in my heart, but it’s not the end of the world! I stayed positive, I’m much stronger. It’s about time I move on.



Moving On
Talk about moving on, I have the privillage to be one of the 8th Philippines Web Awards final judges (again, yeay!) with among the best judges around, from Inksurge, to Drew Europeo, to Carole of Netdiver, Joshua Davis and many great idols.

I got major revamp of my design skillset, I feel it and it's becoming more positive, although at some freaking time I can get uninspired and bloody-work-emo. But it's cool. I will be spending my time meeting my dearest friend Noni who's in KL now and will be at my brother's house this weekend to play PS2: Prince of Persia, Warrior Withn. Yeay!

Now, for laugh and giggle, listen me singing a verse of Anthony Hamilton's Since I've Seen You (here). Muid pandai nyanyi gak la.... kuang-kuang-kuang...


* wasn't my last dance at the club with Dan last week, yeay! wanna dance few more.
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As Days Goes By (Part II)

Rangkapan Kata-kata untuk Kalian

Hatta, suatu ketika aku telah mengayakan kekhilafanku untuk menepati terma keegoan dan ketidakmatangan dalam erti kehidupan dan kerjayaku. Berulangkali aku bertindak terlalu emosional yang sedikit sebanyak memberi kesan seterusnya membentuk perwatakan pasif dan negatif yang senantiasa berbicara tentang perihal ketidaktenteram jiwa malah hasrat hati dalam menitik corak kerjayaku.

Namun, masa telah dihembus bayu bagaikan awan di langit yang biru. Aku mengerti akan warna kehidupan dan takdir yang perlu dinilai secara positif. Aku sedar akan iltizamku. Hari ini, aku memulakan langkah yang pesat untuk membentuk corak baru dalam lapangan kehidupanku, suatu pengajian yang baru yang mengalir seperti sungai , yang akan mengisi diriku dengan seribu satu ilmu. Hari ini juga, aku mahu mengubah persoalan kredibiliti aku sebagai seorang seniman dan juga ahli reka interaktif di suatu ‘daerah’ yang pernah membina kematangan dan pengalaman kerjayaku.

Aku kini percaya akan jari-jemariku dan permainan minda yang akan terus kekal kreatif yang akan membantu menyelesaikan permasalahan komunikasi visual. Aku ingin meneruskan destinasiku ini sebagai hamba yang mencipta, memberi dan menyumbang terhadap kemajuan budaya maya dan kehidupan rohani dan jasmani. Insya’Allah.

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Back in those days!
Watching US Top 100 Billboard on Channel [V] yesterday reminded me of our dear Paula Malai Ali. This is the conversation I had with her on Channel [V] shootin'.



Muid: Hey there, glad to see you here. (Abby was next to me)
Paula: Ouh, hello there.
Muid: I enjoy watching your show at Filusic in RTM Channel 2.
Paula: No, that's not me. That's my sister.
Muid: Oh.. you're Paula. Sorry, i thought you're Jenny :P
Paula: (Looked at me and go like 'deyme')

I had the worst conversation every with her :P. Well, after that I paid to see her once in Actors Studios and attend a charity benefit in KLCC (if I'm not mistaken). She musta-been like: 'duh.. Jenny is much famous than me?!? '

We start 'giggling' and Abby just 'knock' on my head off. We had our pictures taken with our dearest sweet Paula. Paula, if you happen to visit this blog again, girl, I'm really sorry girl. ;P

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Love Tried To Save Me

These are my hands, but what can they give me?
These are my eyes, but they cannot see
These are my arms, but they don't know tenderness
And I must confess that I am usually drawn to sadness
And loneliness has never been a stranger to me, but

Love tried to welcome me
But my soul drew back
Guilty of lust and sin
Love tried to take me in

These are my lips, but they whisper sorrow
This is my voice, but it's telling lies
I know how to laugh, but I don't know happiness
And I must confess, instead of spring, it's always winter
And my heart has always been a lonely hunter, but still

Love tried to welcome me
But my soul drew back
I was covered with dust and sin
Love tried to take me in
Love tried to break me

And I must confess, instead of spring, it's always winter
And my heart has always been a lonely hunter, but still.

Heart is one of the precious organs in our body. It’s funny how we are (Malay) translate it. It should be called ‘Jantung’, but instead, we call it liver (‘Hati’). I got shot by a cupid before, it was this year indeed. I felt so alive and contented. But I know somehow it will hurt me someday. But facing it has been the greatest challenge. Here’s what few of my dear friend advice me:

Abby: it’s up to you
Gaby: just forget about it sometimes, try not to think about it.
Daniel: It won’t last forever, no need to
Aniq: I have no single friends
Nonny: Yeah, right!
Shieko: Don’t worry
Perez: Dia busy kot. Give time :)
Awan: dalam hati ada perasaan. dalam perasaan lahirlah jiwa. dalam jiwa ada cinta, dalam cinta ada segala-galanya.
Azril: You want to meet up for a drink? we can talk about it..

A lot of them concern about me. Sometimes I got so emotional, afraid to let it go. When my heart is trying to keep love far from distance, somehow it won’t work. Sometimes it’s hard to let go of the things we love the most. It’s a risk we must take. I remember reading ‘Tuesday with Morrie” and how the author describe about compassion and ‘buying’ thing. I just found out that I’m buying ‘love’ but I’m unsure about really happy of the ‘product’. Let’s just wait and see if my sayang would read this and see what my sayang thinks about it. Where are you? I miss u sayang. Please SMS me :)


Work updates
I've been intensively upgrade my skillset in flash & PHP, hence I had achieved much positive result. It's always been so good to be able to learn something new. This month I will be sorting out my portfolio and revamp 50% of (.ml - moedlatif) content and interactivity. I'm also currently upgrading DMP:2006 with new look-n-feel, it's going to be very fascanating as I had revamped the whole site and looking forwards for more content-improvement and much interactivity. In fact, I want to get back more traffic, since it's been passive for a year, because we, DMP Collective @ Did'jital Nu'santara have been actively participating in many local and South East Asia exhibitions and talk. Not to mention, I had a wonderful time at The One Academy (Final Year Multimedia student's) presentation and assesment. Nice meeting Jason from NagaDDB Malaysia. Thousand appreciation goes out to Sweii, for such a great company and the gift. Also, would like to thank DesignTaxi for credit-ing my name in their portal. It was nice meeting you guys!

I would like to congratulate both of my senior friend, Apai & Anajin for their new born baby. God bless you guys with all the best things in life :)

I heard about iDN DesignEdge2005 conference that will be in hold in Singapore this 11-13 November. I hope I can come there, and meet all of my Asian friends from Singapore, Indonesia, Philippines & Australia. Hey, thanks to Illustration Mundo for featuring my illustration work.



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* where is that dancefloor...?

Singa Menjelma Di Selatan Nusantara

The other side of the Country.

Almost 80% of the MRT user in Singapore carries portable music player, such as small cute thumbdrive MP3 player to Apple's iPod. In 7-11, they are selling it like selling curry puff, it's no longer a luxury. People are moving so fast and still, feel that humanity in each of them, (whatever I have said).

I met few yet most nicest people in town while I was at 'Temasek', namely Roger Tan, the owner of Shuffle Art, who brought me to so many nice places on the way to the opening exhibition of Design Taxi at Hills Creative Arts that night. Besides able to see and touch John Leigh of Karborn.com, Tokidoki, Basso & Brooke's artwork, I had the privillage to meet some of Singapore's finest creative such as Shaun & Irie of Neighbor, Creative Director of Hills Creative Art, Alex, FFurious Team, and friends like Regina, Gerald & Agnes of JunkFlea (Nice to see you guys again) and few others. A thousand appreciation goes out to you guys for having such good time and get to know you guys better in person. Mucho gracis amigos!

All Night...
Now, that's not all. E9's team; Irene, Henry, Vivian, Siew Ling, Agnes and Jason took me to a nice dinner at ThaiExpress in Singapore Plaza. It was a great opportunity to know them closer as they are so fun and cool to chill with. After dinner, I went to India Street to meet up my graffiti buddies, ARTVST. These guys are truely awesome and really find myself hanging out with comedians! To Lutfi @ KillerGerbil, thanks for introducing ARTVST. It was a great honour. Zack, thanks for sharing yor stuff with me, Zul / Lil Pink Devil, really 'lalok' one... so dem funny la!
So much fun and hope to see you guys again this September.


Didjital Nusantara partlayin'


Peter Hassan & Markiza (wife) performin' blues


Perez posses for Shieko's illustration


Aishah with her performing arts.

NotThatBalai? or going to another balai?
It was nice.. even thought I miss the opening ceremony on Friday night, I did came by the place on Saturday. The review was ok... but as usual, few 'confused' artless visitors still want to 'arrest' our commitment and effort. Whatever... at least I managed to catchup with COA, Art-tech, SWS, Orkibal, Perez, Rooty, Uncle Sam and few other nice fellaz. Aishah, your performance art was indeed American ;). It open my enthutiasm in art (especially installation!).
Well, apart of all, Shieko & Orkibal work's has been selected and published in New Straits Times & TheStar (click here to see)... and thanks for carrying Digital Malaya's Didjital Nusantara (again) to the press. Cheers!

Interlude
Sekian lama sudah ku tidak melepaskan luahanku di jurnal ini dalam bahasa Melayu. Bukan tak inginkan, sebaliknya penguasaan bahasa ku terlalu klasik untuk mencatat segala rintihan harian dan kehidupan peribadiku di jurnal digital ini. Tapi, sejak menggulungkan getah lembut pada tetikus melayari jurnal digital si Awan, aku bersemangat untuk merelakan minda dan hatiku berpesta bahasa.

Mama,

Ku harap perjalananmu di timur Nusantara,
dibekalkan doa tulus ikhlas oleh ananda,
dan ku harap moga Allah akan sentiasa disisimu,
melindungi dan menceriakanmu,
Mama, minta maaf diatas kekasaran ananda,
yang membuatkan hatimu terluka,
bukan kehendak dan nawaitul ananda untuk menjauhimu,
cuma titian masa dan komitmen ananda yang menjarakkan kita,
Pohon maafku wahai bonda.

To My Dearest Love

Miss you and love you so much. I am very fortunate to have you around and really glad you manage to get a job. Remember, never forget our relationship and love and don't let anyone take or steal our love. We've build to much and please don't loose this relationship we have. Be good and always keep your loyalty with me. I'm yours and you are mine.

This is for you; the title is Intralogi Cinta.

Intrologi Cinta

Mau kulepaskan dan sampaikan suara cintaku wahai kekasih,
ingin kugenggam nilai cinta dan kasihmu ini didalam sanubariku,
agar terus mekar dari terbitnya suria hingga tidurnya suria,
Mimpi-mimpi yang kulalui amat indah,
walaupun cinta kau kini nian jauh dihati,
amat ku rindukan mesra belaianmu,
walaupun ku tau dihati kau tetap mencintaiku
masa pantas berlalu, keluhan jiwaku ini menjerit memanggil kau,
Apa yang akan terjadi nanti wahai kekasih?
Hanya kita saja yang bisa tau segala-galanya.



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* cinta takkan terlepas walau ditemui, masakan takkan kulupakan tarian kita dikala waktu kau bersamaku.

Smokin' Friday: Not That Balai...

Well, workin' is really an obligation, but when it comes to weekend, you have the entire two days to yourself, to do whatever you want, or maybe starting from Friday night.. This weekend, I have a choice; either I can take a hot shower, use body scrub, dip my leg in a bucket with hot water with rosy (rose) aromatherapy and sleep all day long. But the fact is right after finishing my work in the office on Friday night, I was rushing to meet up with Shieko, Perez, Orkibal, Sona and Drew who had recently got back from Australia. Well, I managed to arrived home around 9 pm and show my dad's company logo I had designed. Then I grab one spicy chicken which Abby bought from KFC and went of to pickup Orkibal and all of us went to Lost Generation Space at Jalan Permai, Taman Seputeh to setup our artworks.


More pics can be viewed at Shieko's fotopages.

We had graffiti on the wall of the nice house there, and had work continuously until Saturday evening. I was exhausted. We went to have our break at Burger King. I was so hungry I ate two cross potatoes, fries, one fish burger and one double cheese burger. At home, I ate my mum's laksa, which is so hot and nice....


Today, just finish doing an interactive piece for my first ever video installation for NotThatBalai exihibition. I just realized one thing that I'm happy to achieve, that is to do an interactive multimedia (Flash) with limited of time. Not like my final year back when I was in UiTM, I spent months and months just to do a normal piece of flash presantation, but since you are able to meet datelines regularly, you are able to develope a product so spontanously yet gives you the quality you desire. I guess it's all come to the effort and experience you have gain before plus with friends you hang out with...

I am very please to found out that my mentor, Hasnol J Saidon also will be featuring his work there. It's the year where I start back to become an artist, well, just for the weekend, and on weekdays, I never have the time to do my personal stuff such as art & digital designs... I was fully commited on my work and hope I can focus more. That's why I don't update digitalmalaya.com for a loooooong time! But just now I manage to do a splash for DMP...and hope I can buy my weekend time with DMP and my artwork...



I would also like to congratulate my dear friend, Riz Ainuddin & his wife, Raz, for their first daughter today. I'm so happy for him and his family and wish his family a blessful success and health.

Well, meeting up my friends tonight in Ampang for short yumcha, and will be a designer again, starting 9-6 pm till Friday. Yikes!

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Sayang,
Never say 'I hope you still love me" because I told you before, no matter what happen, my heart stays forever with you. It has always been.. we are so far apart, but my life is so contented because I have you.
I love you so dearly... and hope you pray for our 'happiness' and always try to find the best way to keep us together. I miss you.




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* waiting for you to dance with me again my love.....