Welcome to the Heartbreak Hotel

Disini berakhirnya epilogku

Berlapis-lapis ku ungkapkan kata – kata hikmah,
Yang mempersonakan jiwaku berbicara tentang cinta,
Dijiwa hanya Tuhan sahaja yang Maha mengetahui,
Betapa indahnya Cinta mencorak hatiku ini.

Namun, cinta belayar pergi, berlabuh takkan pulang,
Kini ku sedar apa erti kekosongan,
Kini ku sedar apa erti pilu, menghempas hatiku ini,
Walaubagaimana sekalipun ku kutip mencantum semula,
Retak dan parutnya masih terpahat.

Ku tahu ianya tanda kebijaksanaan yang Maha Esa,
Yang sentiasa menguji diriku ini,
Menguji mana sebenarnya,
Yang panas dan mana yang sejuk.

Masa singkat selama empat purnama,
Akhirnya ku tewas, kabur dan menyelubungi muka jiwaku,
Menutup hikayat yang pernah ku ingin rampaikan dan sampaikan,
Walaupun ku sedar suatu masa ia akan mekar semula,
Ku hanya serahkan segalanya pada kehendakNya.


Warna Kehidupan

Pelangi menerangi indah di ruang angkasa di petang yang sayu. Titisan langit selama dua jam tadi di iringi alunan melodi yang menemaniku, melangkah menjejaki jalan-jalan yang dimandikan titisan langit, menaiki ‘motokar beluncas’ menuju pulang ke rumah. Ada ketika aku ketawa kecil walaupun hatiku sayu akibat kecuaianku dalam mempercayai diriku, namun aku patut menerima padah akibat membeli pekej Cinta. Nampaknya ia tiada penghujung kerna hatiku menutup sudah semakin hari menutup istilah itu dan tidak mahu mengundang ia kembali. Dalam minda dan hatiku cuma inginkan lebih ketenangan, lebih kesabaran, lebih ketabahan dan kekuatan agarku boleh meneruskan corak seharianku. Kini, aku kembali ke Persatuan Luka Hati, kembali ke dunia individualisma, dunia hanya satu.



It's officially insecure, no heart that cares and leaving me in pain.
I guess this is how I should say.

Green Eyes - Erykah Badu
(Click here to download the song)

My eyes are green
Cause I eat a lot of vegetables
It don't have nothing to do with your new friend

I don't care, I swear
I'm too thru with you I am
You don't mean nothing to me
So go ahead and be with your friend

My eyes are green
Cause I eat a lot of vegetables
It don't have nothing to do with your new friend

I'm insecure
But I can't help it
My mind says move on
My heart lags behind
But I don't love you any more
I'm so insecure
Never knew that love did this
Ooh, ooh

I can't remember the last time I felt this way
About somebody
You've done something to my mind
And I can't control it
But I don't love you any more
Yes I do, I think
Loving you is wrong baby
Ooh, ooh

I'm so confused
You tried to trick me yeah
Ooh, ooh, oh
Never knew that love could hurt like this
Never thought I would but I got dissed
Makes me feel so sad and hurt inside
Feel embarrased so I want to hide
Silly me I thought your love was true
Change my name to Silly E. Badu
Before I heal, it's gonna be a while
I know it's gonna be a while, chile

I hope it's not too late
Too late, too late, too late
Feeling insecure
Your love has got me sore
I don't want no more

Just make love to me
Just one more time and then you'll see
I can't believe I made a desparate plea
Believe me yeah, ye-ah, no, oh
You see I can't leave, it's too late
I can't leave, it's too late
Don't you know, I can't leave, it's too late
Can't go no where, no
It's too late
It's too late
It's too late
It's too late yeah
Come on babe

Don't you want be strong with me
You told me we could have a family
Want to run to me when you're down and low
But times get tough and there you go
Out the door, you wanna run again
Open your arms and you'll come back in
Wanna run cause you say your afraid, afraid

Never knew what a friendship was
Never knew how to really love
You can't be what I need you to
And I don't know why i fuck with you

I know our love will never be the same
But I can't stand the growing pains

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Lost in dust. Forever.

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* almost the last dance...