Sunday, February 26, 2006

Birthday yada yada...

Grave in quality or manner (or some of us called it serious) is a very perilous term in my dictionary. I am a person with great of sense of humour and I like to be for who I am at all time I could have. I refuse to take away my personality, appearance and attitude I own, because I believe it had shaped who I am today. I prefer not to be a 'dull', passive and boring person. But I ain't playin' neither. It doesn't mean people can step on my head. There are times I get serious in some matter.

I had achieve my discipline on training myself to stay healthy.
1. I stop smoking.
Heavy Dunhill, to Marlboro to Kent 9, then 6, then 1 and then stop!
2. I start working out. I go for more then just my regular dumbells.
3. I try wake up early. No more 10s!
4. I start compromising. I tolerate and be more patience.
5. I start seeing the real things more in front of me
6. I been offered chances.
7. I like to eat healthy food and more greens (vegi)
But no one is perfect. Deep in my mind and soul, I know that in some ways, there are some circumstances that makes me fall apart. No futher details to this subject ladies and gentlemen.

Past two days, was the day I turn 27. I got a day off (from working) and really fully utilized it. I had a nice lunch and discussion with my friends at PJ Hilton, and went for a Kanye West workout plan. I got home, then went back to Sri Hartamas for regular yamcha with Shieko and Orkibal.

On Saturday, I went to the city. I met Ameer (former collegue), then Shieko and Orkibal at Sg. Wang. Shieko, was very generous to buy me lunch to celebrate my birthday. Arigato Shiekocan!
Then, shieko split up. We (Me & Orkibal) decided to go to Time Square to buy a lomo camera (finally!) at this nice shop called The Folio. He got himselves a fish eye lomo while I got myself a colorsplash. Went for a foot massage (after the morning workout). It was damn nice, bloody brilliant Thai massager. I went out to the city to take some various shots and mostly they are experimental shots. That night, I went to see my personal trainer to discuss about my health and stuff. He was very nice and very helpful, or it was apart of the centre policy. Haha..
I took the Komuter train back to Bandar Tasik Selatan. Dozzed off so I stopped at Serdang. Abby went to pick me up and I suppose to join her at Subang Jaya (ss15) for yamcha and hangouts. Instead, I got my foot ache (due to the message) so I went back home, watch TV and fell asleep.

And on Sunday, I got interviewed by students from UiTM about Graffiti art and stuff for their final project / paper. It was ok but those kids are very nice :)

I went to Adidas store to buy some short sport pants, t-shirts and stuff. Had a nice club sandwich and went back home. But I had my weekend swim. It's a must. Geezz, i'm still having my hickups (since Friday) and it annoys me.

besame mucho?

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Yang Jauh Hari-hari datang membanjirkan kasih

Wajah sayu, menuju 27. Usia yang makin pudar.

Sudah sekian lama aku tidak meluangkan masa untuk mencatatkan perjalanan kehidupan seharianku dalam jurnal ini. Aku kurang sihat. Badanku amat lemah akibat dari latihan yang tak terkawal di pusat gim Sabtu lalu. Akibatnya otot-ototku sengal, dihadiri pula dengan demam dan selsema. Aku tidak dapat tidur dengan lena. Jumaat ini tibalah masanya untuk aku menentukan jiwaku.

Bila kau harapkan cinta
aku tak percaya lagi akan apa yang kau beri
aku terdampar disini tersudut menunggu mati
aku tak percaya lagi akan guna matahari
yang dulu mampu terangi sudut gelap hati ini
aku berhenti berharap dan menunggu datang gelap
sampai nanti suatu saat tak ada cinta kudapat
mengapa ada derita bila bahagia tercipta
mengapa ada sang hitam bila putih menyenangkan...
- Sheila On 7.

Berkali-kali aku nyatakan tentang bisanya bercinta. Ia lebih celaru bila ia berada dalam maya terhalang. Dia berkali-kali menghantui hidupku, meyakini bahawasanya hatiku dapat terima kembali kehadirannya. Aku begitu prajudis tentang apa ertinya cinta kerana pada dasarnya ia tidak wujud. Masakan sekarang orang 'berdua' kerana tanggungjawap, tetapi hati dan mata memberontak untuk sesuatu yang baru, yang tak jemu. Bukankah pada abad ini kerana di abad ini manusia mengejar kepentingan diri, kekayaan yang datang dalam gengaman tangan mahupun sebesar padang?

Persetankan jikalau dia ingin berubah. Hatiku tetap tawar untuk menerimanya kembali, walaupun dirayu dan dibanjiri kata-kata yang aku anggap tak rasional. Apa guna aku beremosi dengan perkara yang tidak ada tujuan. Aku tak mahu kejar air sungai yang mengalir tanpa tahu kemana arahnya berakhir. Mata hatiku cuma perlu teruskan perjalanan yang lurus dan sedia ada.

Jerome sahabatku berpesan kepadaku, biar bangga dengan apa yang ada dalam diri kita kerana kita unik. Aku yakin akan motivasinya.

Aku ada lagi tiga purnama untuk bernafas. Makin hari, aku tak dapat merasa udara yang jernih. Berlalu aku memetik jari dan melangkah pergi.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Digital Art Exhibition @ Galleriiizu

Thousand Thanks:

To all who came in our show. We, DMP had such a great time with you. I actually got bezerk an hour before the show starts because our dear friend Perez had some technical problem with the demoreel, but in the end, it went of well! Thank you Perez.... so proud of you! Thanks Shieko and Orkibal for coming to the show.

Me and Shafix of Bjorkscape!"

Shafix of Bjorkscape's work"

Too much writing, now let's visit the photo gallery! yeay!

Someone bugs me with few sms's today... number starting from +2307....something. I don't know the the hell is he/her from but stop bugging me! Please! go somewhere else...

Announcement / Pengumuman:

Digital Art Exibition % USEAGAIN Asia

Tarikh: 7 February - (on going)
Lokasi: Galleriizu, Bangunan UOA (berhadapan pintu masuk utama KLCC Convention Center atau blakang hotel Crowne Plaza)
Masa: 7 PM
Admission: PERCUMA, free drinks


Friday, February 03, 2006

Fighting Stereotype?

Is it not? When we given a chance to change something, what would you change?

As for me, I feel that I would like to take the Malaysian Web Design industry a step further. By means, to play a role to help and support for better standard in web design in Malaysia. In fact, Malaysia (no offense) has always been left behind. The difference? It's a gap of 10 years (when it comes to technology and the way people think). The nearest to compare is with Singapore. They are way much better than us, even how client think about creative aspect. We do notice some of them out there still think that if you drive a nice car, you own everything. I bumped into few people who have been living luxuriously but when I ask if they often travel, seem that they never made any stamp in their passport. They continue to become stereotype to think that there are no use to travel, learning different culture and change a bit, at least the way we think and try to stay more positive. I also confront people (especially bumiputra's) about how 'proud' they are studying abroad but using education as a part of their weapon to threaten people. I remember three years back, a Malay lecturer (guy with glasses) from the Distance Learning Program (UiTM), would have a swank argument with one of my working colleague with this dialogue; "Do you know who I am? I have master in .......?" That's what I'm talking about real attitude, it's the reality. Doesn't mean you have master in your education, you can gracefully disrespect a person. He should pick his own size.

For almost six years, I had build for people to showcase their portfolio and websites and there are a lot of great improvements. But it seems that some designers or artist didn't have the chance to showcase their talent elsewhere. Because some out there don't like competition and don't like to see others emerge or improve. So, they shut us down. For example, how the rules had been set to disturb creative freedom.

Now, I would like to touch on one sensitive issue about our very lazy 'Malay'sian. It seems that after a lot of monitoring, a lot of Malay designers seem to be satisfied with the way they work. Any compliment will make them more into a 'comfort-level' which to me, does not improve at all. BECAUSE we know the fact that they dislike to explore, therefore they don't grow. Growing your skillets and the way you absorb things around you is important. If not, you learn nothing.

Getting competitive?
Yes, getting competitive means a person should always find a person to compete (in terms of skill sets and experience). It's very healthy. What I'm talking about is the way you work yourself. The more challange you get, the more you strive. If you stay passive, you will never improve. This also means to receive brutal critics and feedbacks from anonnymous crowd. I have plenty of haters and trust me, the more they hate me, the more I'd improve and the more standard I set to achieve. At the end of the day, I'm happy and so are they :)

"I'm twenty something" - Jamie Cullum

Getting 'aged' but trying to keep up as much as I can. Psychically I'm gaining a lot, thank to my self-discipline for waking up earlier than before, paying twenty five minutes every morning with my dumbbells and two half-boiled eggs. I had been jogging frequently and I hope to stay this way. Another 3 weeks, I'm turning 27 and that worries me a lot. This year means I need to focus and make sure I’m on the right track. I'm glad that this year resolution is kicking off smoothly. I manage to clear a lot of bills, and thank God, I receive fewer bills from the Mr. Postman yeah! I thought of changing my car but I always wanted a scrambler. I like to be edgy, but dad says if I ever bring the bike home, he's going to burn the bike. So guess what that means... :-) Have to respect the old man's opinion. There's always a reason behind each decision one made.

* here goes that drummer boy.....